Bleh. It is only day one and I cannot say I’m all smiles. I went to bed around one AM. That is early for me. I usually go to bed around six to eight in the morning. I woke up a few times, but ultimately got up at ten-thirty. I would have gotten up at nine, but the house was frekaing cold, so I avoided leaving the bed, thus causing the second round of sleeping.
I forced myself up when the hour and a half passed because I had no intentions to keep sleeping. As said, I am trying to change my sleeping patterns. It was still freezing. The reason was because my brother turned the A/C down per usual and he was still home in bed, thus it was not turned up at all.
The rest of the morning to early afternoon was a struggle for me. As said, I usually sleep during the daylight hours. I was afraid that I would fall asleep at my desk. Luckily, I pulled through. I have not fallen asleep at all since getting up. I guess tonight I’ll go to bed at twelve and hopefully fall asleep not too long after. I hate trying to sleep and then recieve none until many hours later. Such a waste of time it is to lay in bed and be unable to sleep.
Anyway, my dad got home safely. He entered while I was in the middle of sorting keys. My brother surprised me by getting me forty of them. I did my usual repeating of “Cool” as I first looked at them.
Sigh. I’m still sort of tired, but I am trying to be strict. Geez… Too bad the real world allows no leniency on those who naturally sleep strange hours. Oh yeah, I found out what that feeling was yesterday – the one dealing with the girls. It was disappointment over them never stopping to send an email that could have merely been the length of one sentence.
The only reason I found out what happened to them was through this other person I know. Simply put, it rubbed me the wrong way to know she knew and that I likely never would have had I not mentioned. Sigh. Oh well.
That is all.

Yesterday was long and busy. We left the house at eight and returned around seven thirty. The time spent in between was hours in a car, getting haircuts, me wandering about and purchasing something, leaving, and getting things at a pet store – one thing being a TALL cat tree.
We stopped two times to eat. One at ten thirty at IHOP. Two pancakes were too much for me even though I had not eaten thing before that since five in the evening the day before. We ate again sometime around five. Despite the six hours passing, I was not hungry, but ate anyway. That is where the sickness came. Too much food in too close a timespan in regards to how my body is.
I felt sick by the time we came home and I was tired since the night before I only had a light sleep of just a few hours. Either way, however, we left again after unpacking the cat trees and animal food out of the back seat. We had groceries to get and it was already eight.
When the whole thing was finally over and the groceries were put up, I decided to hit the bed. I doubted highly on the capability to sleep, and I was correct. I could not be comfortable due to being out all day. thus required a shower. I had chores to do since they were not taken care of during the day, but I declined since I likely would break things in the state I was in. That did not mean I recieved sleep however.
Therefore, I was in a state of being able to do nothing, yet unable to sleep. The night went on and I have no idea when I really did manage to slumber. I woke up around twelve today, did some meager chores and I still feel rather out of sorts.
I had a headache earlier. When food is mentioned, even by television, my stomach feels as though it is turning. I tried eating bread and not even that was mild enough. I doubt I’ll be eating for a long time. Perhaps even over twenty four hours – ’tis not uncommon for me.
Sigh. My head is hurting again. That shall be all.

Heh. Yeah, I just now finished the story “The Frog Prince”. After becoming a prince again, the guy should have gotten up, spit on the princess and left. Bah.
Anyway, the other thing I merely wished to write down is that once the school starts around here, I very well may end up doing volunteer work at one of the schools. Here’s hoping I can keep up with the sleeping change. Jeez.
Oh, and the twins are still nonexistent. I have not had word from either for quite some time now. I have actually lost count so I shall assume it has been a month. If longer, then… well, it would not surprise me.
Friday I will be on a bloody trip and will have my hair cut as will my mother. I’ll likely meander about the mall during the time she is getting her hair done – she has hers dyed and cut. Sigh… the time to kill. Good luck to me then.

Other than that, some notes in the following:
This Friday my dad will be coming down.
My mother mentioned he has intentions on getting me a small fridge so no one will take any of my cokes.
On the 7th I’ll be seeing Cindy again; I have no idea what we would really talk about.
On the 11th my mother intends to drag me up to see my eldest brother and for the both of us to get our hair cut.

Bleh. I hate leaving my room. Even more, my brother’s place is… well… Yuck.

I just finished a two season series… it claimed the ending to be happy, and it likely was for the most part but… GAH!!!! It was freaking sad for a certain part! Sobs! Sigh… oh well. I am not one for writing the happiest things either. Heh.
Ah… and my dad came down today. It was near eight I believe. He arrived right when I was hitting the bed. Yeah, my poor dad… caught me right when I was going to sleep. I’m a bad person. Eesh!
Sigh… anyway, there is no word on Neko or Pup… I guess I have come to expect that over time. I’ve known them for over two years now… Strange.
Hum… well… I guess that is all I really have to write. I just wanted to vent out the “Sadness”. Hu.
Um… Yeah.

Not much to write. My dad came down here on Friday and will be going back today. My sister was here for one night, I believe Saturday. My eldest brother arrived yesterday and will be staying for a while. Cleo will be staying definitely this time.
I have not seen CP nor Neko for a while now. I have my scanner back. Some shelves have been put up, thus all of my boxes are emptied finally. I saw Monty Python’s Holy Grail finally. The ending was a disappointment, but other than that it was cool.
I have to see the therapist this afternoon. I think it is a waste of money, really. Um…
I cannot really think of much more to type, therefore, this is the end.

My mother took me to the gym with her. She goes there to swim. I thought I would do simply five laps, since I had not swam for about three years. That time was only a few nights, and that had been after not swimming for perhaps three years as well. I did the laps at my top speed. Stupid, yes… but I lack patience on such things. Well, my inner right thigh is a bit annoying and since I rarely work out my arms compared to my legs… well, they feel tired. I bet they will be aching by tomorrow.
I recieved a headache and a huge bout of nausia due to the chlorine. I doubt I’ll be going back any time soon. Swimming just is not fun for me anymore. Back before, I swam like a fish my mother tells me. I believe her. I loved swimming back then. Funny thing is… all of that stopped after I started my depression. Ever since then… even now… Swimming just does not appeal to me.
Oh, well.

“Talking” is a nice thing sometimes.