I have little to nothing to write about, mainly because I am on a reading high – specifically fan created fiction on POTO. I received the 2004 movie version of it recently and was quite moved. In fact, it is the first movie for me to “cry toâ€â€¦ if you count a single tear.
I downloaded a few songs and have fallen for the actor’s voice for the phantom. I had heard Michael Crawford’s voice for the song, but I could not help but go for the movie’s singer. Watching the movie, I first thought the actor’s voice left much to be desired, but considered the case of “those who can, do, those who can’t teachâ€.
Then after hearing the music on headphones and comparing it to the musical’s… Yes. I enjoy the movie’s singer better for the theme song at least. It is more masculine… baritone and all of that. It fit more to what I was seeing in terms of a dark, brooding Phantom. Perhaps if I had seen the Broadway portrayel where the Phantom is not ridiculously “good looking”, then the tenor voice would have gotten me first. I can see that voice better for the more original portrayel – Erik. Even more, the instrumental usage in the movie is more of my tastes. It—is—rapture.
It makes me miss singing, really. My throat has never quite been the same after changes. I assume it may very well be the medications. Either way, it hurts, my throat does, it goes shaky and it cracks. It is… rather saddening. Oh well. I still dislike hearing me go off tune though.
Well, other than that, I have not seen the girls for perhaps a week now. I suppose they are either having a family concern, school is going overload or their Internet is a bust. Here is luck to them.
Today is another thing. I found that my ability to become aggravated or irritated -whichever word – I become such a state easily if something changes from my usual ways. It had been a while since my last occurrence of that. It… rather leaves me slightly concerned. In other words, by god, I am never going to do well working with others or by standards other than my own. I can, sure, but in the end, I will keep it concealed until it explodes and I am enraged, sick, or have a nervous breakdown. Sigh. Oh well.
On the 19th I will be seeing the dentist and will find out just how poorly kept my teeth are – as I am certain my teeth will die on me by age twenty.
My next meeting with Wynn will be December the 9th.
Father will be coming back in two weeks I believe.
I suppose this shall end. I want to put down some lyrics though.
From: The Phantom of the Opera (2004)
Performed by: Minnie Driver
Composed by: Andrew Lloyd Webber, (Music/Lyrics); Charles Hart, (Music/Lyrics); Richard Stilgoe, (Music/Lyrics)
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
Life can lived
Life can be loved
Alone…
~ Enraptured…