Two hours until Father\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s Day and sadly I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m thinking my dad is a dumb ass. Harsh, no? Well, he does some stupid things despite they are out of the goodness of his heart. My mom calls him co-dependent. Well, in any case, his co-dependency on my older brothers and sister make my mom and me pay.
\nI mentioned somewhere earlier that my sister lost her job due to a dispute. Even if she was in the right, she let her pride get in the way and lost a lot. She went to my father for money in regards to paying rent. Dad lied to my mom saying he loaned her two hundred, which means he flat out gave it to her and didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t expect to be paid back. Later my mom finds out he gave her five hundred instead due to my sister thanking him for that amount. This is the key element to all this.
\nWell, my brother will be leaving soon. He took a two to three day trip to get things ready for his move. With him gone we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll be five hundred dollars short on rent money. My eldest brother came back down here with his girlfriend when her job moved her back. My mom, thinking we wouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t see him much anymore, of course got him airline tickets to come here last Christmas to be with us. Due to that she had late pay and now has trouble with a certain credit card company.
\nThere is then the house payment. It is a lot more than we were used to, my dad is in retirement with a job that pays less than his previous and my mom no longer can get overtime because of things going on with her work place.
\nWith all these issues, my sister\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s \u00e2\u20ac\u0153loan\u00e2\u20ac\u009d from my father now sets my mom back on being able to pay bills and she came to me tonight to ask if I could go ahead and give a\u00c2\u00a0 four hundred dollar check. She also warned me if things didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t go well she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d likely have to borrow two hundred more from me. Six hundred dollars?! My eyes widened at that concept.
\nAs usual I did calculations in my head as to how much I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d have left in my account after so much lost. I determined all my attempts to save money to get my account back to normal were somewhat in vain then. I also thought – bless my kitty\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s heart – it was a good thing I was no longer paying medical bills on my cat or then I wouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be able to do such for my mom. So, in the end, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m literally paying for my sister\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s stupid pride and my father\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s co-dependency.
\nMy dad doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t get it. He thinks he can give off all this money, help out my siblings and still manage to keep financially sounds as well. He tells me that despite my brother\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s move, I shouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have to pay an extra one hundred even though we are going to five hundred bucks less once he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s gone.
\nRight, Dad, where are you going to get the rest? I live here too, so I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll contribute what I can therefore quit telling me I shouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t. I know you don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have a lot of money and all that shit. I can handle this so quit sticking your head in the sand like an ostrich.
\nIt just makes me resentful some. I hate to think myself feeling that way at all, but I admit I am a bit peeved. I mean, why am I paying for my siblings\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 damn mistakes and poor judgment with money?
\nMy sister is a damn hypocrite too. I remember before she left for the capitol to go to college, she griped about my brothers. All the money that went down the drain due to the both of them left little for her and me in regards to college funds. Of course, she was only thinking of herself. I really didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t care other than what it did to my parents.
\nAnyway, she went on about how she was paying for the fact that my brothers wasted so much money and that my parents were at fault for giving it to them and didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t think about her. Blah, blah, blah\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 That is what makes me particularly vindictive now. In her case, there was never any money to begin with. In my case, for her faults, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m taking money out of my account to make sure she can pay her damn rent because my dad decides to save the day for her with money he doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t even bloody have.
\nSigh.
\nI just hope this doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t continue on. After this month and on, if they only ask four hundred from me, I can do that\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 but if they ever need more\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll be broke.
\nThe whole scenario is pathetic. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m the one on Medicaid and seem to be the only one able to keep my financial goings stable. More than once my parents have had to ask to borrow money from me. Well, my mom is the one, but that is because my dad does the ostrich thing. My brother has borrowed money from me, and I have no expectations of him paying me back. My eldest brother admittedly has never truly taken any money from me, but plenty has gone down the drain from my parents which affected all of us. My sister is a selfish bitch who doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t consider her actions and always goes to my father to bail her out which then either gives him financial problems or problems to both my parents and thus to me.
\nI don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t mind helping out my parents and I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t expect them to pay me back. They\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve treated me well, love me and have raised me. They bought me food all my life growing up, clothed me, bought necessities and things that were for simple leisure. I feel it is good I help them out now. They need it; they sacrificed for me and my siblings. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll help share their financial burdens.
\nThat just doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t change the fact that I am disappointed in my father. He can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t play superman to my screwed up siblings all the time. One day he won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be able to do anything because he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s dug himself a hole full of debt. My sister will never learn from her mistakes because she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll always expect my dad to have money for her. My brother will likely never pay back all the money he stole from the family and thus my parents will likely never get out of debt or get back to their previous stability. The same goes with my eldest brother when wasting so much money on a college education he never applied himself to and constantly dropped out of whenever there was sign of a low grade.
\nSigh\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 It is really just pathetic.
\nI was hoping to get my account back to decent level this month. That went down the drain now. I just hope some other financial emergency doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t come up and hopefully I won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t need a haircut soon because I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d hate to use what money I have left on it. Damn, you sister\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6
\nOkay, don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t mean that but oi\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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