Psychologist… Psychologist… Whoo…

I saw the psychologist today. We – my mom, her and I – went over the scoring and her assessment on all of that lovely stuff. I rather lacked in paying deep attention. For the most part I believe the talking went in one ear and out the other. No aspergers the lady thinks. My mother still questions. There were things my mother and I disagreed with on some of her thoughts.
There was a screening on my intellectual abilities. My IQ is relatively the same as the last time. The thing says “functions in the Superior Range of measured intelligence” … “this places (my) cognitive functioning at or above aproximately 96% of (those who are my) peers” … “(my) verbal skills appear slightly better developed than (my) nonverbal reasoning skills” and it “falls in the Superior Range” … “Performance IQ (gives the score) falls in the Upper High Average Range” …
There was scoring for the verbal and performance subtests and I apparently did very well.
There was more on what my diagnosis was. Again my mother and I agreed with her over some things and yet did not on others. When all of that was done we went off to do errands. She stopped by a grease world food place to get me a drink since I have been deprived of one for hours as well as some fries since I was hungry. I went over the sheet the psychologist gave us and made a few notes on things that seemed absurd to be placed next to me. In the end we returned home around five or something like that.
I could write more I suppose, but I am not really in the mood, so this shall end in some notes.

My sister visited us during the weekend.
My brother came back from his week long vacation on Sunday night.
Thursday Mom will leave to check on my eldest brother and the cats and will return Sunday.
Dad will come down the following Friday.
The Friday after that one, I will see Mrs. Wynn.
If there is more to be known, I am not aware.

Uh… *Brain dead*…

Um… After I hit the bed Saturday morning, my sister came to stay the weekend. She arrived around two, therefore I was still out like a burnt lightbulb. Around four to six, I cannot recollect, we went out to eat at Jefferson Street Cafe… At least, the name is something like that. My memory becomes all the more terrible over time I have concluded.
My sister left on Sunday night after we ate out at a Mexican restaurant. The rest of the week went on as normal as usual. My brother did leave to go on vacation though on… I think Friday, so I did not have to really enter his room during the week other than after my sister left. I swear, she was only here for about one day in all and the laundry was already backed up. I also undid the bedding to my brother’s bed and washed that because my brother is picky like that… so says my mom.
Other than that, the week has been a blur. I’ve been missing the few people I come into contact with left and right. It seems I am asleep when they are awake. Yeah, that includes my mother even. Oops.
I’ve been reading up on an RP I did back in 2004. Man… talk about memories. Also, I have been editing it some again. I am such a bloody perfectionist. Oh well.
My brother should be back this Sunday. On Tuesday I get to see the psychologist again, if I am not mistaken.
Sigh… That is all I am writing. My eyes burn.

Note and Survey…

Friday, have an appointment with Wynn… I just now forgot the time… 2:30 likely though.

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What is your name?: Nyxity

Are you named after anyone?: Not really.

What’s your screen name?: Nyxity

Would you name a child of yours after you?: No,sir.

If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Probably Kyle…

Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?: Constantly, no.

Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: I will not become famous.

Straight/Gay/Bi: Platonic.

Single?: That is a hard question.

If not, do you want to be?: Does not matter.

Birthdate: I do not know the date my parents were together to make me be born.

Your age: 19

Age you act: That is difficult as well.

Age you wish you were: I would have to know what all ages are like to decide that.

Your height: I’m getting used to it.

Eye color: Brown.

Happy with it?: Most of the time.

Hair color (natural): Black.

Happy with it?: Mostly. I’d like it completely jet black.

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Southpaw.

Your living arrangement: Uh…

Your family: Immediate, there are five other human members and six other pet members.

Have any pets?: Yes.

What’s your job?: Looking after the house.

Piercings?: Ears.

Tattoos?: I want one.

Obsessions?: Eh…

Addictions?: Internet.

Do you speak another language?: No.

Have a favorite quote?: Yes.

Do you have a webpage?: You could say that.

Do you live in the moment?: I would not know.

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Likely… not.

Do you have any secrets?: I think everyone does.

Do you hate yourself?: Not anymore.

Do you like your handwriting?: Not really. Handwriting is awkward.

Do you have any bad habits?: Trichotillomania and likely others.

What is the compliment you get from most people?: Uh…

If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Monosyllibic.

What’s your biggest fear?: Eh…

Can you sing?: I used to be able to decently.

Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: That is funny.

Are you a loner?: Yep.

What are your top priorities in life?: I lack ambition.

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I have no idea.

Are you a daredevil?: Nope.

Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Not really.

Are you passive or agressive?: I guess passive.

Do you have a journal?: Yep.

What is your greatest strength and weakness?: That is difficult.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I’d be more screwed up in the head.

Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I suppose so nowadays.

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: At the moment, I think of nothing.

Do you think life has been good so far?: Good is a funny word.

What do you like the most about your body?: Eh… my hands I guess. I like hands.

And least?: *Smiles*

Do you think you are good looking?: Nope.

Are you confident?: Nope.

What is the fictional character you are most like: I do not think I am particularily like any.

Are you perceived wrongly?: Yeah.

Smoke?: Nope.

Do drugs?: Sort of.

Read the newspaper?: No.

Pray?: Not really.

Go to church?: That sort of place makes me nervous.

Talk to strangers who IM you?: No.

Take walks in the rain?: Sometimes, when I need it.

Talk to people even though you hate them?: I doubt I would.

Drive?: Mope.

Would or Have You Ever?: Huh?

Liked your voice?: I’d like it a bit deeper.

Hurt yourself?: Yep.

Been out of the country?: Not really.

Eaten something that made other people sick?: Not that I know of.

Been in love?: I suppose so.

Done drugs?: Sort of.

Gone skinny dipping?: No thanks.

Had a medical emergency?: Yep.

Had surgery?: I think I did.

Ran away from home?: No.

Played strip poker?: Ew.

Gotten beaten up?: Not really…

Beaten someone up?: Doubt it.

Been picked on?: Yes, sir.

Been on stage?: Sort of.

Slept outdoors?: Yeah.

Thought about suicide?: Recently, no.

Pulled an all nighter?: Yesh.

If yes, what is your record?: I do not keep track.

Gone one day without food?: Yeah.

Talked on the phone all night?: If so, I was really young.

Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: No.

Slept all day?: Two days straight.

Killed someone?: No.

Made out with a stranger?: Ew.

Had sex with a stranger?: Ew.

Thought you’re going crazy?: Going, no.

Kissed the same sex?: Not really.

Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No.

Been betrayed?: Who has not?

Had a dream that came true?: I don’t think so.

Broken the law?: I would not know.

Met a famous person?: Not that I know of.

Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No.

On purpose?: Roaches are not animals.

Stolen anything?: I am slightly klepto, but I always returned things not long after. That was when I was still in school.

Been on radio/tv?: Sort of.

Been in a mosh-pit?: No.

Had a nervous breakdown?: Yep.

Bungee jumped?: No.

Had a dream that kept coming back?: Sort of.

Miracles?: *Shrugs*

Astrology?: Fun to read at times.

Magic?: *Shrugs*

God?: *Shrugs*

Satan?: *Shrugs*

Santa?: *Smirks*

Ghosts?: *Shrugs*

Luck: *Shrugs*

Love at first sight?: *Shrugs*

Yin and yang (that good can’t exist w/o bad?): Yep.

Easter bunny?: *Smirks*

Believe there’s a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: No.

Do you wish on stars?: Sometimes.

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: No.

Do you think God has a gender?: No.

Where do you think we go when we die?: I gave up on that a long time ago.

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yep.

Who is your best friend?: Best is a funny word.

Who’s the one person that knows most about you?: I do not know.

What’s the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Uh… I never got much advice.

Your favourite inside joke?: Quack.

Thing you’re picked on most about?: “You’re weird”.

Who’s your longest known friend?: Uh…

Newest?: CP and Neko.

Shyest?: CP and Neko.

Funniest?: Uh…

Sweetest?: *Smiles*

Closest?: Eh… my cat, maybe.

Weirdest?: Um…

Smartest?: Ack…

Ditziest?: None.

Friends you miss being close to the most?: Heh…

Last person you talked to online?: I’m talking to one right now.

Who do you talk to most online?: CP or Neko.

Who are you on the phone with most?: Dad.

Who listens to your problems?: Mom.

Who do you fight most with?: None really.

Who’s the nicest?: *Laughs*

Who’s the most outgoing?: Eh…

Who’s the best singer?: I would not know.

Who’s on your hit-list?: I once had one.

Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Ew.

Who’s your second family?: CP and Neko.

Do you always feel understood?: Hah.

Who’s the loudest friend?: Uh…

Who’s house were you last at?: *Smirks*

Name one person who’s arms you truly feel safe in: More like, I feel most safe snuggling my cat.

Do your friends really know you?: More than many.

Friend that lives farthest away: CP and Neko.

Do you consider love a mistake?: *Shrugs*

What do you find romantic?: Uh…

Turn-on?: Um…

Turn-off?: Eh…

First kiss?: Nope.

Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them?: Duh.

Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out?: It is not?

Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: *Laughs*

What is best about the opposite sex?: Those with a deep voice.

What is best about the same sex?: Lacking a certain thing. *Smirks*

What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: A certain thing.

What is the worst thing about the same sex?: A different certain thing.

What’s the last present someone gave you?: Swords. 😀

Do you consider your significant other hot?: *Chuckles*

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Who Was the Last Person…

That haunted you?: Uh…

That you laughed at?: At?

That laughed at you?: That is difficult.

That turned you on?: A stranger with dark hair.

You went shopping with?: Mom.

That broke your heart?: Uh…

To disappoint you?: Eh…

To ask you out?: Heh.

To make you cry?: *Smiles vaguely*

That you thought about?: CP.

You talked to on the phone?: Dad.

You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Heh.

You saw?: mom.

You lost?: Uh…

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Right This Moment…

Are you going out?: No.

Will it be with your significant other?: No.

Or some random person?: No.

What are you wearing right now?: Jeans, tank top, glasses, watch, dog collar on my wrist and my headsets.

Body part you’re touching right now: Funny.

What are you worried about right now?: Nothing.

What book are you reading?: I mainlt read Internet fictions.

What’s on your mousepad?: Blue.

Are you bored?: Not really.

Are you tired?: Sort of.

Are you talking to anyone online?: She’s getting dinner, but more or less, yes.

Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: I hate phones.

Are you lonely or content?: Content.

Are you listening to music?: Yes.

Are you eating anything?: No.

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Two Names You Go By
1. Nyxity.
2. Whatever pet name my girls give me.

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Asian.
2. Bipolor.

Two Things That Scare You
1. Not in the mood…
2. … to write them out.

Two Everyday Essentials
1. Sleeping.
2. Drinking.

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Glasses.
2. Hair band.

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (as of now)
1. None…
2. … really.

Two Things You Want in a Relationship
1. Um…
2. I’d have to be in one to decide.

Two Truths
1. About…
2. … what?

Two things You Hate
1. The sound of vacuums or sounds like it.
2. There are others, but I cannot think at the moment.

Two things that appeal to you in the opposite gender
1. No breasts.
2. Deep voice.

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Sleeping.
2. Doing thing on the Internet.

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. I doubt…
2. … I’d write it down.

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. I’d stay in my room, thank you.
2. South Padre is nice.

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Meet CP and Neko face to face.
2. Make sure my writings and art are not killed off with my departure.

Books I’ve read and loved :
Good Omens, Neverwhere – both by Neil Gaiman. Terry Prachett collaborated with the first one.

Small notes…

I’m not in a writing mood, but I figured I might as well make notes.
I had a true meeting with my brother’s girlfriend. True meaning, I talked with her and she was there longer than a few minutes at most. I like her. She is smart (sort of bad at times since I do not know what she is saying sometimes) and easy to get along with.
My brother will be going on his vacation time this weekend if nothing goes wrong and takes it away.
My sister might come down in his place. Heh.
I think there was more, but I am too tired in the head to care…
Oh… yeah. I’ll be seeing one of the doctoer people on Valentine’s day. Since I see a psychiatrist and saw a psychologist… I really do not know who I am seeing and I get confused when I ask anyway.

My eyes and throat hurt…

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
My left wrist; I could not take it anymore and a substitute teacher made me snap. The rumours about it was annoying.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A poster, two crane paper scrolls, a small shoji screen, a shadowbox with miniature replicas of Korean masks, some brass keys and something I got for my birthday one year.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
It looks like a cell phone.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I am bad at catagories.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Nope.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Uh… ask me when I am not sick.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Uh…

8. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Yeah.

9. WHO’S THE LAST PERSON YOU THOUGHT OF?
CP and Neko.

10. WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
That is unnecessary.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
When my imagination runs away from me and it is so dark that even when your eyes have adjusted you cannot see your hand and the silence becomes deafening and you are certain a psycho killer is waiting somewhere in the room and is just waiting to kill you… Yeah, sometimes.

12. THE LAST BOY TO MAKE YOU CRY?
A friend I saw for the last time before I moved away.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
I’m allergic, but I like the scent of rose.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hazel for either really.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Soda.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pepperoni.

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I ate some bread just now… pretty much anything to make my throat not bother me so much.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
If I did it was a very long time ago since I do not remember.

20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
I took a class, but I never was good at languages.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
That is tough since it depends on what you see as a gift; for a sap, one could say “the gift of life”. There!

22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
Everyone likely likes at least someone.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I have no idea.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Nautica I think.

25. WHAT’S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Uh… one where someone else is driving me.

26. DO YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?
No.

27. WHAT’S THE FUNNIEST THING YOU’VE EVER DONE?
I have no idea, but people seem t laugh at the way I say things at times.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
That is something one cannot help, so it depends on the situation.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
I do not do well with words; I prefer actions at most.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED :
Thirteen.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
That is hilarious.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Being bothered when I am busy.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
Once from what I know, but that was because I was born there.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Mental handicaps.

36. FIRST JOB?
I have not had one yet.

37. EVER OWNED A BUNNY? HOW MANY?
No, but my sister did.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
My friends tried to get me to but I found it ridiculous.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
Feeling like crap due to being sick and eating bread.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I’d rather have a removal one.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I like surveys.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Uh…

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
I would not care; I am likely allergic to it.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Books, music or video/dvds.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None really.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My middle name was after my god mother I believe.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I did when younger.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
I like all of them.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
I cannot remember… perhaps it was simply that day mentioned in number 12.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
No, but I find writing awkward and trying anyway.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
I am not fond of meat… I guess chicken though.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Trichotillomania and likely some other things.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Uh… I guess Billy Joel, but I do not find it embarrassing.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I do not know; possibly.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
There is a likelihood, since I cannot remember things well; either way, it would have been unintentional.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
In this world/reality, yes apparently.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
It has been a while since I have been angry… it depends on my state of mind at the time.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Uh… the rest of the house that is outside my room.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Not really… but lately I question… Perhaps it is appathy.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
It was a toy cat that my sister’s damn dog ruined.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
I have not looked at that thing for around nine months now.

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Assumably, yes.

63. WHY WAS 63 MISSING?
I don’t care really.

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No, and I doubt I would ever want to be in one.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
That is too complicated.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Eh…

67. DO YOU LIKE TO GO WHEEEEEE?!
I would not know.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No, I am lazy.

69. HAVE YOU NOTICED NUMBERS 63 AND 67 WERE MISSING?
Sixty seven is not missing and all it shows is lack of originality as well as laziness; congradulations.

70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Simple vanilla.

71.WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE?
I do not have a favorite, but I have those I like.

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Blue, green and teal. Black is my favorite shade.

73. YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
None really.

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Mine have not really come in yet.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
That would be ridiculous.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
MCR – I never told you what I do for a Living.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Bread, as mentioned a coupel times earlier.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Uh… probably my dad.

79. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eh… that is tough.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
I’m not much for thinking at the moment, but I guess “Shimmer” in my case.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
I lack in that area at the moment.

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Soda.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Sun: Aquarius. Chinese: Tiger.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
None really.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Black.

86. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Brown.

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
IMy face has to be around seven inches away from the computer screen to be able to read it easily without my glasses on.

88. SIBLINGS?
Sister and brothers.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
Months with fall weather.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I dislike fish for food.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
NCIS.

92. Favorite Day of the Year?
Eh…

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
I am leery of relationships, much less going out.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Fall.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Neither.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
A person who is bored or who likes surveys.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
People who hate surveys.

99. BIGGEST FEAR?
Failing in life, and that means a lot of things.

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Depends on the kind of love you speak of.

Ungh…

My head hurts so I am just typing a few things. My dad visited on Friday as well as Tom. I have not seen the girls for a while now, but I have not been on too much either. I actually found a way to watch a series I had mentioned to them before and that made me very happy. I started getting sick yesterday, which is also the day my dad went back for home. I feel like crap now and it is not even anything serious. I feel like laying down. Yeah…

Ink blots and Bigfoot….

I did not go to bed until around maybe five, give or take. I awoke again around seven thirty. I spent the day working on the computer and did minimum of my chores. Around two I went to see the psychologist. My mother and I waited for a while. She filled out forms. I declined since they usually confuse me or I’d require her help to do half of it anyway. We left for another office and waited a while for the psychologist to finish up with her patient before me.
When it started we went through my history, my mother did most of the talking since I never know where to start. I’m quite a follower in such cases. I do not do well with people asking me such general things. I require specifics.
Well, eventually my mother left and we started the testing. In the middle of her taking a break and getting the things for it, she let me have some peanuts and water when I noted in realization that I had not eaten all day. That was very kind of her.
The testing was simple hub-bub… reminded me of the IQ test I took a long time ago… somewhat. I had to define random words – ones that started out simple to ones that eventually became words I never even encountered before in my life. Then there was visuals where one had to finish the pattern. I had to use my hands on a repeat the picture with blocks sort of thing. That was annoying. My wrists and hands kept feeling weird and I had to pause a lot to rub them. The last thing was ink blots. I mentioned things I saw and that one of them I had seen on the net before and gave an example of what some people saw in it.
After that, we left the room. My mom was waiting. We were given more forms, but a different kind that pertained to true and false or one of those “never, sometimes, often, always” sort of answers. I filled it out while waiting on my mother, while in the car and the like as she ran a few more errands. When that was concluded we went out to eat at an Italian restaurant here and had a pleasant time.
We returned home, brought in the things, and I went to my room to sleep since I recieved at least one hour. I did not wake up again until around eleven I think. I got up, took a shower since I awoke in a sweat, and then got on the computer, read and eventually finished up filling out the form things. Ode Joy. I still feel tired apparently.

I like surveys….

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
“The Truth’s superb surprise”

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What are you touching?
Oxygen molecules.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
It was either the history of fire or Law and Order, I cannot recall which was first.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
1:30 AM

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
1:26 AM

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
I do not hear the computer. I have headphones on and am listening to music.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I went to the grocery store on Saturday.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
The journal on a DA account.

9. What are you wearing?
Jeans, a loose shirt, a leather jacket, a watch, a chain dog collar modified to fit my wrist and glasses.

10. Did you dream last night?
I likely did, but I have a poor memory.

11. When did you last laugh?
Um… Maybe today… I do not pay attention.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A small shoji screen, a plaque with miniature Korean mask replicas in it, two oriental crane scrolls, brass keys, a poster I was given as a present and some sort of picture thing with words on it given as a present.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Not that I can recollect.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It is good to use in order to relax.

15. What is the last film you saw?
A Charlie Chaplin movie.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I would not know. I would likely put most of it in the bank.

17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know.
Well, you alread do not even know who I am… *Smiles* I like blue. There.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
One would have to get pretty specific, choose his or her words carefully and take many things into consideration… I’m too tired at the moment to do all of that.

19. Do you like to dance?
Depends on my mood… great for exercise though.

20. George Bush.
That is quite a question, is it not?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I’d use a boy’s name.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I’d use a girl’s name.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I’m too tired to comprehend “abroad”.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
St. Peter is the one at the gates.

25. 5 people who must also do this in THEIR journal are…?
I do not know many people and if anyone manages to look at my journal, then it is a complete stranger.

Huh… I forgot to changed the time when daylight’s saving occured… it says it is 2:37 for the journal… It lies!

WinWord died and came back alive…

Thank god for System restore. I was cleaning my computer because my C drive was becoming too full. How it did, I have no idea. I tried deleting some of my things or putting them in my D drive, but when most were cleared away it did not do much. I decided to try again by removing programs I did not think I used. That was a mistake. After they were removed I found I lost my Word processor. That is not good. I “need” that as much as I “need” the Internet. That is a lot of needing.
Other than that, I have just a few little “important” notes left. My mother was mistaken. My testing is in Wednesday, and she said it is a psychological test instead of a neurological because the doctor said she did not do those. Another thing is that my dad most likely will be coming down soon, this weekend I believe.
For unimportant things, I wrote some short stories, that CP read and seems to like. I’ve also posted about twenty-five WinWord pages from my “never-ending story”, that actually might be ending. O.o… I did such for a specific girl who watches my account. She is undeniably nice. Therefore, I made an exception, caved in and now smile whenever she writes a comment after reading my sucky writing. I feel loved. Hu.
I guess that is all, other than a note, which is the following: I want to see CP and Neko! T-T

Asp Burgers…?

I saw the psychiatrist today. Scheduled on the 17th will be the psychologist for a neurological exam. How fun. Well, during my visit, she mentioned the possibility of Asperger’s Disorder being associated with me. The rest of the day is a blur from being half awake and the rest was sleeping due to lack of sleep beforehand. When I woke up again I looked at pictures, worked on a picture and read. Anyway, my mom looked up on Aspergers, so I guess I’ll read about it. Funny, though…
Depression, GAD, OCD, Bipolar 2, Aspergers… I do not think I left any other diagnosis out.