I woke up in the ungodly morning hours from a dream where the back of my head had been embedded by a hatchet. The weapon had been thrown and entered the very back of my skull as though it were a block of wood. I walked around a bit with it still in until the weight and leaning over a certain way dislodged it.
The wound was eventually covered in guaze. Throughout the dream I was very cautious of what I did, afraid the bandaging would come off. Other than that, it was another typical dream. I just thought the hatchet part was odd enough to be worthy enough to be remembered.
There you go.

Well, So far the holidays have gone by without a hitch as far as I am concerned. I was the first to give acknowledgement to my brother when his birthday occurred. He came home in the middle of the night, the early morning hours. I was still up. Since it had officially been his birthday for a few hours, I said in my usual voice, “So you managed to survive another year. Congratulations.” I believe I went to bed after that. I cannot recollect.
My father and brother came down later on that day. My sister came down on Christmas evening. We had opened presents without her since we were not certain if she’d come. Budget was tight this year, but none of us really cared I think. By average each person got about three gifts.
Someone got me a Disney movie. It happened to be the wrong one, but I was amused nonetheless. In order to watch it, I will have to get the first one though. Ha.
My eldest brother did some shopping as well. Much to my surprise he got me a book. I have no clue as to what it is about if it does have a theme, but is an anthology of stories by Neil Gaiman, so I’m sure it is dandy.
I also got a new keyboard, which was the only thing I really had asked for. I have no idea how much it cost either, but it is likely more expensive than the one I had been looking at. (I’m a bargain searcher.) It is still lovely nonetheless. I was somewhat avoiding the design, looking for better luminescence, but I seem to be typing fine with it. Joy.
The clincher was my dad. I realized not long after he left from his last visit, he likely went to look for a pocket watch. I had talked to him in the car about my interest in getting one. I had my eyes on a specific one at the time. The interest was mainly for the self-wind ones. I had the fortune to stumble upon a really cheap one that I wound up and listened to. As said, it was cheap, so that was its last run, but it brought me much joy to the point that I wished to have one some day.
Well, when it occurred to me what sort of many my father is, I took hold of my mom and told her that he likely decided to go out and buy one even though I did not ask to have one for Christmas. Well, she spoke with him. Much to my resignation, he already looked, found and bought. It is not what I had been looking at, that is for certain, but it is lovely all the same.
He of course picked gold of all coverings. I certainly did not want such a coating. I am not a gold person and it goes with nothing I have. Oh well. I had seen it on the Internet actually. That amused me. What makes it great though is that as it of course does the winding, it also has a clear face; therefore, I have the joy of watching the springs go about in action.
There were two add-ons as well. My mom got gift cards for all of us. My brother and I got one to Amazon. My second brother, I have no idea. I think my mother went through and got my father one for some sort of clothing store. Anyway, that was another moment for amusement. I am usually up at night, so when my mom applied for the card, I received the notice when it entered my mail box. It said something about Amazon; therefore, I knew what it was. Heh.
I had only asked for two things this Christmas, one was the keyboard. The other was to get some videos from a specific website. Well, both cases were screwed over some. I had been looking at specific places and specific things. The keyboard I was looking at was around fifteen bucks. The videos and books I was looking at were either half the price at the site I was at or had things that were no longer in existence on Amazon. Therefore, both were screwed some. They tried. Heh.
The other card was to Hastings. The problem with that is, Hastings NEVER has anything I look for. I even checked the website. Nope. No luck. Silly parents.
Anyway, the rest of the day was sort of spent piddling in my case. I drew a bit and looked over some things. I slept during the afternoon since I had been up all night and only managed to obtain a half sense of sleep for a few hours in the morning. I woke up and my sister had arrived. She had some car trouble, so my second brother had to go get her. They left the car. We began dinner then. It was pleasant. The food was okay. My sister got to unwrap her gifts.
I was rather happy at her response to something I suggested my mother to get her. I remember her asking me to look up a certain show to see if there was a boxset for it. There was not at that time, but I knew there likely would be one by now. I noted to my mother to try that when she asked what my sister might like.
When my sister opened it, her face lit up. I think it received the best response. I know I did not get it and I know my mother was the one with the credit – my mom was leery, because she thought my sister might say it was stupid – but it made me happy that I knew what my sister wanted.
After dinner I went to sleep again. I woke up around two this morning. I might work on some drawing again.

Ciao.

And I mean that in a fond sense. My mom came in this morning asking me to help her take out the trash. On my last trip back, I fell. I hit the concrete head first. It has been a long time since that little maneuver has happened. Pretty much the last time was in elementary school years. I banged up my head a lot back then… right into concrete.
My mom checked my eyes for sign of a possible concussion. I assured her it was unlikely. I never got them back then, I doubt I would have gotten one now. Besides, she said she did not hear anything when I collided, so no worries. Anyway, I admit, I still feel weird in the head, but that is to be expected.
I did consider lying down, but I had been doing that since Saturday after the whole shopping trip. Due to the crowd, the sunlight and noise, I managed to get a headache and later on it evolved into my back aching. Add onto that some chest pains later… well, by the end of the whole expedition, I was tired and felt like shit. So I lay down. I did not wake up until maybe half a day later. I managed to stay awake for at most two hours, but still felt like crap, so slept again. My back was in terrible pain. I woke up again around six or seven at night.
Despite I still felt out of it and not too great physically, I decided to force myself to stay up. I hate it when I sleep a lot just because my body is being a bitch. After the fall, however… my body has really been jarred by the fall. I might have done something to my legs. I scraped one of them despite there was no effect on my jeans, because I just rock like that.
Well, other than that, I might go get an ID today. I’ve needed one, but it has been postponed often due to my lack of driving and the place not being open on the weekends.
Blah. I think I’ll take some Advil now. Damn fall.

Well, I have been sleeping all through the day and am awake all through the night. I blame my sleeping on that experiment with the Library job. How I had been sleeping before that had been perfect. Oh well.
Anyway, I am no longer a teen. How odd. It does not really affect me though, so it is just another day in the year. I found my best B-day gift to be in the form of tweaking someone’s banner and avatar theme on the forum I go to. What made that great was that she actually used it. It made me feel happy.
Now there is the real reason for this post. It seems the SSA sent a check. Assumably that leads us to believe the whole thing pulled through and I have been approved for disability… whatever it is. I opened the envelope. There was a check. I did not know it was a check, but my mom was certain it was, so I handed it over to her to confirm. It was. She was estatic. I was rather… “Okay?” She decided to call my dad and tell him about it. I decided to retreat to my room.
I mean, I vaguely understand the whole reason for her enthusiasm. Afterall, if it works out, it will help me out in the long run and it gives some stability. Yeah. I got that… but that does not mean I am emotionally moved or anything. At most I can only think, “Okay… so… what is supposed to be done with it?”
Yeah, I am that oblivious. That leads to give proof to the likelihood of my theory to be correct. I will easily be taken advantage of when older if I do not have someone to help me understand things. How pathetic. Oh well.
Other than that earth shattering news, Saturday, my mom and I will be going to that town that is 15 to 20 minutes away from here to do some Christmas shopping. Whoo.

We think I might have iron deficiency anemia. This was thought up when I complained of coldness as of late while everyone else was just dandy. Other known symptoms was fatigue, shortness of breath and poor concentration. My mother had thought up earlier this month on having a check up to see if I had athsma… now we will look up on anemia. Jeez.
My dad came down yesterday, but I was bedridden so I slept from twelve AM until four PM. The next time I fell asleep ended up being around seven this morning and I woke up again around nine. Fun, fun.
My parents will be attending some sort of party tonight that is associated with my mom’s work. Tomorrow my dad will be going back to his appartment. Monday I will be seeing Cindy. A week from now my mom intends to go to a town about fifteen minutes or so away from here to do some Christmas shopping and I will likely join her.
Okay. I guess I got all that is needed to be noted. Joy.

Yeah, I have been sick for a whole week. Nothing is terrible now, but I am still recovering. Bah. Breathing is still a difficulty and my muscles are still trying to return to normal. I still have some congestion and my eyes still burn. I feel a heck of a lot better though. Ha!
Last night was the obvious sign that I am still not too well. I had slept for some hours before my mom came home from work. It was Friday so of course we had to go grocery shopping. I was not keen on that, but went anyway. I was nauseated, had a headache and a few other things I cannot remember at the moment. Anyway, I am the cart pusher. What did not help was that there was two boxes full of bottled water, a jug of water, four jugs of orange juice for my mom, two cartons of milk and two cases of sodas. Than add on the liquid laundry detergent and the other groceries that consited of food items. Simply put, I was running into things since my muscles were still weak and achy as well as my head was swirling.
In the end I was wheezing, clammy, tired, my head still hurt, my throat hurt and I was concerned that I’d fall over. I was also a bastard towards my mom by being snappish. I appologized as we left and I appologized for it again this morning. She of course understood.
Anyway, when we got home, I helped unloading and half helped on unpacking, but soon retreated to my room and hit the bed. I was out like a lamp.
Anyway, I woke up an hour ago and I will say I am feeling better, but then again I am not moving around a lot. I did do some chores, menial, but some. I stopped after I vaccuumed though. It winded me and did not help out my eyes, which are still burning. So, now I am here.
I saw Kyle the other night and we talked a bit. It was nice. It seems his lack of being on is due to playing World of Wars. Heh. That stuff really pulls you in though. I was in a chat room for three nights now. One was a dud and left me deoressed. The second was a one-on-one and turned out very nice. Last night was with three people, but mainly stayed as one-on-one. I was only up for a couple hours though and left due to dizziness.
Sigh… in fact I am feeling a bit dizzy right now… I might lay down again soon. Bah. I am so out of it.

Bah. I came down with a cold right after ThanksGiving. Lovely, that is. Today I am able to stay awake… but then again my eyes were freakishly dry to the point that sleeping more was impossible. I do feel better in comparison to the day before, though. Sigh. ‘Just thought I’d make a note of this. Oh, and due to being sick I did not see Cindy today.