Meh… I took a nap a while after the jelly experiment. My father and sister arrived not too long after. They went to Boerne with my brother to look at cars. I woke up about three to four hours later and they were still gone… that night they got me pizza.

I stayed up all night after that and put my dad’s Father’s day card out for him around four in the morning. Come nine, I brush my teeth, tried out that Gel-Kam and decide to lie down since I cannot drink anything for thirty minutes after using the stuff. I fell asleep… and I slept for about a day.

Sunday night my eldest brother came down for dinner and to see Dad on Father’s day. I remember my dad coming in about dinner, but I conked out right after. Then he came back again to tell me to say goodbye to my brother. I did not even realize he had come until then.

It was that time I found out just how weak my body was. I stumbled out of bed and was wobbly when on my feet. I said goodbye to him, waited until he left the house and then retreated to my room again. I fell asleep once more.

I woke up around four or five this morning. I got up to take a shower. After that I said good morning to my dad. Poor guy. We never really did see each other during his time here. I kept apologizing for that too.

My mom was up and I collapsed onto a chair in her room. I spoke to her about how I was feeling and the like. She is worried about me losing more weight. She told me my weakness was due to not eating for two days. I respond that it was not like I was trying not to eat. If she knew a way to eat and sleep at the same time, then I could have done something.

Eventually we leave her room. She feeds that cats and gets my meds, I look for something to eat. I snack on a roll until I can manage some more strength to actually make something. Pretty pathetic, I slumped down onto the floor and let my hand rest palm up on the kitchen floor to hold the roll when I was not bringing it to my mouth.

I finally rise to get something of an actual meal. I paused in “mid-struggle” to get something from a high cabinet. My mom offers to get something for me. I list to her what is up there and ask her to choose. She grabbed the soup. So, the soup was cooking, I started some laundry and put up some plates, I think.

When the soup was ready, I took it to the kitchen table, slouched down and ate. It was pathetic there too. Wielding a fork was tiring and I would think wryly that if weaker I’d likely have to rely on someone to feed me. The soup sucked too. I figure it was the low sodium.

After taking forever to eat, I finally finished and plunked the bowl into the sink. I believe I retreated to my mom’s room then and plopped down on the chair once more. My dad soon finished his shower and getting ready and came in to wake my sister up. They get ready and then headed for the door. My mom and I followed. I crouched while my mom stood in the driveway and saw them leave. After that I meandered into my mother’s room with her. I ended up falling asleep in there.

I woke up around ten later and rose. I did a bit of laundry and put up the dishes. I ended up going to my room and slept the rest of the day. I woke up at eight thirty and am now here.

I now know why I have avoided the PB and J combination all these years. The jelly makes my stomach upset. How lovely a way to start the morning with wishing to hurl not too long after eating breakfast and knowing I wasted money on trying to add some nutrients to my diet. I’m better off sticking to my “non-healthy” ways it seems. (I mainly eat grains and that is it.) Hah!

Huh… well… I cannot really keep up with the days this week since my sleeping pattern is a bit odder than usual. So… this will be pretty close to a listing. Um…

The Terminex guy came on Monday. I was confused as hell and was utterly lucky that my brother was home. I more or less left once I saw he was handling it. I read a book I ordered that day. It was okay. I think I was expecting more, but in any case it stuck enough for me to think about it the rest of the week.

I think Tuesday was just another day.

Yesterday the Terminex guy came again, my brother handled it and I read the other book I had gotten. It was somewhat better than the first, I think. Then later on I went to see the dentist for my final appointment. It finished thirty minutes earlier than the other times. Now I am done with all of that and will see her again my next cleaning.

I found I rather did not mind the visits. Sure, I mainly just sat there, listened to the dentist and assistant talk here and there and let my teeth be worked on… but it was pleasant and I really like my dentist.

In fact, she seemed to find me to be a pleasant patient. I humor her for some reason, but I seem to humor a lot of doctors be they psychiatrists, therapist or whatever. I have yet to understand.

Um… today is uneventful, really. I worked on my website a bit and added in another “side-site”. I’m a freaking dork. Bleh. Later on my mother intends for her, my brother and me to go out to eat since he will not be able to tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I think my dad is coming down. If not then, it will be Saturday. I got him a Father’s Day card yesterday. I feel relatively bad about getting him a mere card, but damn it! He does not make it easy to get him anything for any holiday.

Anything else? Eh, I guess I’ll mention this for the sheer heck of it. I’ve had an additional pill added to the cocktail. This one is a hormone one. I’ve had one everyday for about a month now. Much to my horror… my chest grew a bit. That is utter evil… Sigh…

Um… I’ve been doing “side projects”.

My sister moved out of her apartment and is staying with friends.

My dad was down here Saturday until today.

Wednesday might be my final dentist appointment for now.

My dad and sister are going to NC for a week to see if Uncle Mike can get her some connections to a job.

I’ve lost weight for some odd reason.

My room seems to receive no A/C and it is already June.

I have a hat that says “Ireland” now; I was hoping to find one that said “I’m Irish”.

I’ve been out of it this week past week.

Edit: That up there proves it. ^