Mom got back tonight around nine. We now have Moki and Cleo in the house. They seem to be taking to the place just fine.
I recieved another email from Erin. I really do not know what to say to her as of late. I guess I am just sort of out of my “groove”… That word just sounds wrong with me.
Anyway, I also got the shoes my mother ordered for me. She kept saying I needed better shoes. Meh.
My reading high is over. Internet is still non-existent on my computer. I drew a few pictures… my hands do not seem to have the flow necessary though. I just cannot draw to my liking at the moment. Hopefully my abilities will come back at some point.
On Friday I will be seeing Mrs. Wynn. I really have no idea what I’d really say to her. Also, I think my dad is coming down then as well. If I am wrong, then he will likely be here on Saturday then.
I guess that is all I have on mind. Hah.

My mom left for a meeting and will be back tomorrow night.
The cable guy from Time Warner came to look at the Internet issue. There was no luck. Instead, another problem is added to the computer.
My glasses needed fixing and we ended up getting new ones all together.
I got an email from Erin.
Life is… not allowing my mind to work at its… “better times”.

I cannot think of much to write. I still have not an Internet connection on my computer. My father left on Monday. I saw my therapist on Monday. I had been late by about twenty minutes. Bad me.
I’m slowly starting to get a feel for the house. I still forget about certain chores since my previous routine was screwed over.
The fence has been in the process of being replaced. It took about three to four days. I was not really keeping count. Either way, it was finally completed today.
There are other tid bits I could mention, but that seems just plain silly right now. I am merely doing an update do this thing has an update. Bleh.
Oh yeah… ever known of a bathroom with TV remote controls in it even though a television is not in there? I found it amusing when I saw them.

Meh. My brother and father have been being quiet pains. Instead of letting me consult Leeker on the issue, they dove right in and got lost in the artic under the ice. Heh. I have the internet back on my computer, but I am still using the home base. Why? The connection to this one is so pitiful it is still of no use to me. On rare occasions through much waiting, a page will load, but other than that… Well, there is not much other. It is pretty useless.
My father sighed and demanded “It is fixed though, isn’t it?”
Well, yes. If you mean that the Internet is running again, then yes.
“Then what is the problem?”
The computer. I do not know how to explain it to you, but the Internet was not the complete issue. He is exasperated. Heh. The men in my life.
In the end, it is still rendered helpless. I am sure it is croaking at times. Poor sucker. For now, it will simply be a music player and something I can type in. Yes, that is what the poor machine is rendered to – a music player and a type writer that cannot even print onto paper. Heh.
Well, I can watch media I have stored on the computer still, but I mainly watched things from a place called “Youtube” on the Internet. Such joy.
Some of me wonders if I should just revert to such simplicities. No longer surf the net, no longer do art on the computer, no longer read various fiction of my interests, no longer having information at my finger tips, no longer chat with the few people I know that happened to be the only connection I seriously have with other people, etcetera. Dramatic, yes? Well… that is how I do things. It is my day.
Do art by hand. I do, but I enjoy coloring it via computer. It is brighter, crisper, and less likely to mess up.
Read a book. I do, but I have already read all of my books and usually require the Internet to get new ones as well as find said books because it is there am I able to find ones that actually interest me.
Go to a library and look up the information. Some things from books just do not hold the same insight.
Find REAL people to chat with. I am new to a town, I do not go to school, I do not have a job. How am I to meet people? Even with a job, how likely will I make friends? It is very little in likelihood. My brother has been here two years and he still does not have a person he can call a friend here.
The list can go on. That is my life? In an nutshell… I suppose. That is pathetic? Maybe so.
What can be said… this is rather numbing.

My Internet connection is dead. Simply put, that sucks. I’m on a wireless port. For some reason such is not working. I’ve tried, my brother has tried and so has my father. I am rendered useless for the most part. Yeah, I have the internet on the main computer, but is not on MY computer. Therefore, most of the things I do are not available. Sigh. Oh well. I lost my ability to do CG art, why not this too? Geez…
Other than that, my wrist is doing better, I’ve been sleeping a lot – my mom thinks it is all of the stress we went through last week catching up to me – but it is toning down now…
Bah… I cannot think of anything else. That is all!

My mind is finally giving into my body. I’ve been sleeping more. Yesterday I fell asleep probably around five or so. I awoke around nine, I think, and stayed up until about twelve and went to bed. I did not wake again until twelve to one the next day. After a while my mother deemed me unable to do more unpacking since I looked out of it and I broke something. In addition I sprained my right wrist. Oi.
I fell asleep after finally eating today around five. Before hitting the bed I met one of our neighbors. He seems nice. He’s brought over two plates of cookies too. The baker of them rocks. Anyway, I woke up again just recently.
Some point this week will be put to painting my brother and my rooms.
I just thought I’d write this.

My mom’s cup of tea was ticking this morning. I was still in bed and I heard this constant ticking. I asked my mom what it was. She assumed it was the clock. I dismissed it as such for about a minute before declaring that false. I eventually lost cool and had to find the source. Automatically I came to the conclusion it was around the table my mother’s tea was on. I looked around and listened… I found nothing that usually ticks. I kept thinkign it was the tea or the candle. Logically it would be the candle – the flame flickering. In the end it was the tea. Geeze.
Today will be our last main moving day. I’ll be hauling this computer off and will construct the desk I got in the mail. The cable people will come today and transfer our cable as well as hook up the cords. My eldest brother is coming down as well. He has been complaining of a throat problem, that might very well be strep, and will be taken to the emergency room here by my mom – health insurance, money and whatever issues…
My doctor’s appointment with Wynn has been moved to the 30th. I do not know when I’ll be seeing the therapist yet.
My dad will come down on Saturday to stay a week, if I am not mistaken. We’ll be unpacking everything. My sister will come down either LATE that night or sometime Snday morning. I’m a bit exicted to show the cats the house, as silly as that may seem.
Well, that is all I am writing.

Woke up around 5:30. We left at 6:30. We got to my eldest brother’s place and got ready. We left and made it to the church at 9:45, I believe. I was tense throughout the whole proceedings in the church. When I passed by the coffin finally, I started to hypoventilate. My mom thought I was having a panic attack. I did not think I was. It was one of those… asthmatic moments.
When calm again, we went to the cemetary. He served in WWII, so there were gun firing and the like. After that we went back to the church and after leaving that we went to my great aunt’s home. We left at 3.
On the trip back my mother and I talked about death, suicide and got a bit philosophical. When we got home we got back to packing and moving things out of the house to the new. This room is empty now minus my computer, some clothes in a suitcase and the bed. there are misc. things, but nothing “worth” mentioning. I’m waiting for my mom to take her shower and then I’ll be taking mine. Sigh… I’m getting off now.

A relative passed away on Saturday. We went up there today to spend time with my mom’s aunt. The funeral will be on Tuesday. This whole thing is making me feel under the weather. I’m worried for my great aunt.