I’m not in a writing mood, but I figured I might as well make notes.
I had a true meeting with my brother’s girlfriend. True meaning, I talked with her and she was there longer than a few minutes at most. I like her. She is smart (sort of bad at times since I do not know what she is saying sometimes) and easy to get along with.
My brother will be going on his vacation time this weekend if nothing goes wrong and takes it away.
My sister might come down in his place. Heh.
I think there was more, but I am too tired in the head to care…
Oh… yeah. I’ll be seeing one of the doctoer people on Valentine’s day. Since I see a psychiatrist and saw a psychologist… I really do not know who I am seeing and I get confused when I ask anyway.
Monthly Archives: January 2006
My eyes and throat hurt…
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
My left wrist; I could not take it anymore and a substitute teacher made me snap. The rumours about it was annoying.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A poster, two crane paper scrolls, a small shoji screen, a shadowbox with miniature replicas of Korean masks, some brass keys and something I got for my birthday one year.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
It looks like a cell phone.
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I am bad at catagories.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Nope.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Uh… ask me when I am not sick.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Uh…
8. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Yeah.
9. WHO’S THE LAST PERSON YOU THOUGHT OF?
CP and Neko.
10. WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
That is unnecessary.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
When my imagination runs away from me and it is so dark that even when your eyes have adjusted you cannot see your hand and the silence becomes deafening and you are certain a psycho killer is waiting somewhere in the room and is just waiting to kill you… Yeah, sometimes.
12. THE LAST BOY TO MAKE YOU CRY?
A friend I saw for the last time before I moved away.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
I’m allergic, but I like the scent of rose.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hazel for either really.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Soda.
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pepperoni.
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I ate some bread just now… pretty much anything to make my throat not bother me so much.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
If I did it was a very long time ago since I do not remember.
20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
I took a class, but I never was good at languages.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
That is tough since it depends on what you see as a gift; for a sap, one could say “the gift of life”. There!
22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
Everyone likely likes at least someone.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I have no idea.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Nautica I think.
25. WHAT’S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Uh… one where someone else is driving me.
26. DO YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?
No.
27. WHAT’S THE FUNNIEST THING YOU’VE EVER DONE?
I have no idea, but people seem t laugh at the way I say things at times.
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
That is something one cannot help, so it depends on the situation.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
I do not do well with words; I prefer actions at most.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED :
Thirteen.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
That is hilarious.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Being bothered when I am busy.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
Once from what I know, but that was because I was born there.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Mental handicaps.
36. FIRST JOB?
I have not had one yet.
37. EVER OWNED A BUNNY? HOW MANY?
No, but my sister did.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
My friends tried to get me to but I found it ridiculous.
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
Feeling like crap due to being sick and eating bread.
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I’d rather have a removal one.
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I like surveys.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Uh…
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
I would not care; I am likely allergic to it.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Books, music or video/dvds.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None really.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My middle name was after my god mother I believe.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I did when younger.
48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
I like all of them.
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
I cannot remember… perhaps it was simply that day mentioned in number 12.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
No, but I find writing awkward and trying anyway.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
I am not fond of meat… I guess chicken though.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Trichotillomania and likely some other things.
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Uh… I guess Billy Joel, but I do not find it embarrassing.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I do not know; possibly.
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
There is a likelihood, since I cannot remember things well; either way, it would have been unintentional.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
In this world/reality, yes apparently.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
It has been a while since I have been angry… it depends on my state of mind at the time.
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Uh… the rest of the house that is outside my room.
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Not really… but lately I question… Perhaps it is appathy.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
It was a toy cat that my sister’s damn dog ruined.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
I have not looked at that thing for around nine months now.
62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Assumably, yes.
63. WHY WAS 63 MISSING?
I don’t care really.
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No, and I doubt I would ever want to be in one.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
That is too complicated.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Eh…
67. DO YOU LIKE TO GO WHEEEEEE?!
I would not know.
68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No, I am lazy.
69. HAVE YOU NOTICED NUMBERS 63 AND 67 WERE MISSING?
Sixty seven is not missing and all it shows is lack of originality as well as laziness; congradulations.
70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Simple vanilla.
71.WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE?
I do not have a favorite, but I have those I like.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Blue, green and teal. Black is my favorite shade.
73. YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
None really.
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Mine have not really come in yet.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
That would be ridiculous.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
MCR – I never told you what I do for a Living.
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Bread, as mentioned a coupel times earlier.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Uh… probably my dad.
79. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eh… that is tough.
80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
I’m not much for thinking at the moment, but I guess “Shimmer” in my case.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
I lack in that area at the moment.
82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Soda.
83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Sun: Aquarius. Chinese: Tiger.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
None really.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Black.
86. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Brown.
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
IMy face has to be around seven inches away from the computer screen to be able to read it easily without my glasses on.
88. SIBLINGS?
Sister and brothers.
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
Months with fall weather.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I dislike fish for food.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
NCIS.
92. Favorite Day of the Year?
Eh…
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
I am leery of relationships, much less going out.
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Fall.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs.
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Neither.
97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
A person who is bored or who likes surveys.
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
People who hate surveys.
99. BIGGEST FEAR?
Failing in life, and that means a lot of things.
100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Depends on the kind of love you speak of.
Ungh…
My head hurts so I am just typing a few things. My dad visited on Friday as well as Tom. I have not seen the girls for a while now, but I have not been on too much either. I actually found a way to watch a series I had mentioned to them before and that made me very happy. I started getting sick yesterday, which is also the day my dad went back for home. I feel like crap now and it is not even anything serious. I feel like laying down. Yeah…
Ink blots and Bigfoot….
I did not go to bed until around maybe five, give or take. I awoke again around seven thirty. I spent the day working on the computer and did minimum of my chores. Around two I went to see the psychologist. My mother and I waited for a while. She filled out forms. I declined since they usually confuse me or I’d require her help to do half of it anyway. We left for another office and waited a while for the psychologist to finish up with her patient before me.
When it started we went through my history, my mother did most of the talking since I never know where to start. I’m quite a follower in such cases. I do not do well with people asking me such general things. I require specifics.
Well, eventually my mother left and we started the testing. In the middle of her taking a break and getting the things for it, she let me have some peanuts and water when I noted in realization that I had not eaten all day. That was very kind of her.
The testing was simple hub-bub… reminded me of the IQ test I took a long time ago… somewhat. I had to define random words – ones that started out simple to ones that eventually became words I never even encountered before in my life. Then there was visuals where one had to finish the pattern. I had to use my hands on a repeat the picture with blocks sort of thing. That was annoying. My wrists and hands kept feeling weird and I had to pause a lot to rub them. The last thing was ink blots. I mentioned things I saw and that one of them I had seen on the net before and gave an example of what some people saw in it.
After that, we left the room. My mom was waiting. We were given more forms, but a different kind that pertained to true and false or one of those “never, sometimes, often, always” sort of answers. I filled it out while waiting on my mother, while in the car and the like as she ran a few more errands. When that was concluded we went out to eat at an Italian restaurant here and had a pleasant time.
We returned home, brought in the things, and I went to my room to sleep since I recieved at least one hour. I did not wake up again until around eleven I think. I got up, took a shower since I awoke in a sweat, and then got on the computer, read and eventually finished up filling out the form things. Ode Joy. I still feel tired apparently.
I like surveys….
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
“The Truth’s superb surprise”
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What are you touching?
Oxygen molecules.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
It was either the history of fire or Law and Order, I cannot recall which was first.
4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
1:30 AM
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
1:26 AM
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
I do not hear the computer. I have headphones on and am listening to music.
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I went to the grocery store on Saturday.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
The journal on a DA account.
9. What are you wearing?
Jeans, a loose shirt, a leather jacket, a watch, a chain dog collar modified to fit my wrist and glasses.
10. Did you dream last night?
I likely did, but I have a poor memory.
11. When did you last laugh?
Um… Maybe today… I do not pay attention.
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A small shoji screen, a plaque with miniature Korean mask replicas in it, two oriental crane scrolls, brass keys, a poster I was given as a present and some sort of picture thing with words on it given as a present.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Not that I can recollect.
14. What do you think of this quiz?
It is good to use in order to relax.
15. What is the last film you saw?
A Charlie Chaplin movie.
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I would not know. I would likely put most of it in the bank.
17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know.
Well, you alread do not even know who I am… *Smiles* I like blue. There.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
One would have to get pretty specific, choose his or her words carefully and take many things into consideration… I’m too tired at the moment to do all of that.
19. Do you like to dance?
Depends on my mood… great for exercise though.
20. George Bush.
That is quite a question, is it not?
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I’d use a boy’s name.
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I’d use a girl’s name.
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I’m too tired to comprehend “abroad”.
24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
St. Peter is the one at the gates.
25. 5 people who must also do this in THEIR journal are…?
I do not know many people and if anyone manages to look at my journal, then it is a complete stranger.
Huh… I forgot to changed the time when daylight’s saving occured… it says it is 2:37 for the journal… It lies!
WinWord died and came back alive…
Thank god for System restore. I was cleaning my computer because my C drive was becoming too full. How it did, I have no idea. I tried deleting some of my things or putting them in my D drive, but when most were cleared away it did not do much. I decided to try again by removing programs I did not think I used. That was a mistake. After they were removed I found I lost my Word processor. That is not good. I “need” that as much as I “need” the Internet. That is a lot of needing.
Other than that, I have just a few little “important” notes left. My mother was mistaken. My testing is in Wednesday, and she said it is a psychological test instead of a neurological because the doctor said she did not do those. Another thing is that my dad most likely will be coming down soon, this weekend I believe.
For unimportant things, I wrote some short stories, that CP read and seems to like. I’ve also posted about twenty-five WinWord pages from my “never-ending story”, that actually might be ending. O.o… I did such for a specific girl who watches my account. She is undeniably nice. Therefore, I made an exception, caved in and now smile whenever she writes a comment after reading my sucky writing. I feel loved. Hu.
I guess that is all, other than a note, which is the following: I want to see CP and Neko! T-T
Asp Burgers…?
I saw the psychiatrist today. Scheduled on the 17th will be the psychologist for a neurological exam. How fun. Well, during my visit, she mentioned the possibility of Asperger’s Disorder being associated with me. The rest of the day is a blur from being half awake and the rest was sleeping due to lack of sleep beforehand. When I woke up again I looked at pictures, worked on a picture and read. Anyway, my mom looked up on Aspergers, so I guess I’ll read about it. Funny, though…
Depression, GAD, OCD, Bipolar 2, Aspergers… I do not think I left any other diagnosis out.
Seeing the Doctor…
Apparently it was scheduled for me to see the psychiatrist tomorrow. I do not think my mother ever mentioned such beforehand, because just tonight she informed me about it being changed to Saturday as though I knew before hand that it would be on Friday. Who knows? Oh, and last night my Internet went out. It was out for more than twelve hours. That was annoying.
Drawing is Painful…
Yes, that is what I have decided. Most people think drawing would be something calming, relaxing from what I would guess. It is not. It is exhausting and it hurts. Yes.
7:44 AM
I awoke around six this morning. Last night my elbows, arms, wrists, hands fingers and shoulders hurt. All of this was due to drawing intensely. I had a cramp this morning. Why write about it? The cramp was in my right leg. My body is weird.