I saw Kyle tonight. It was rather cool. It was odd, since I had not seen him in a very long times, but cool. We caught up a bit and all of that hub-bub until he needed to get some sleep.
I’ve been reading a bit lately, two hours per 100 pages in some books I’ve been getting due to previously mentioned card for a gift. Changes have been going on as well. Said changes are mainly dealings in my present and future.
I’ll be learning how to handle money and become a bit more independent now that I have something of an “income” due to the SSA thing. I am relatively scared and considerably lost in all of this, but I will do as needed and have the reassurance that I do have guidance so I will hopefully not fuck up too badly.
I got my ID recently and have put it to use a bit already when it deals with medication and making an account. Patriot Act they say… Now the bank has been activated and I will be putting use to the money when it comes down to groceries, a fee for rent to my parents and medical cases for the majority if not all.
For the simpler things in life, my cat lost 1/3 of his weight over the year, so I am monitoring him. Also, my dad will be coming down this weekend. Then the weekend after, my mom and I will take a day trip to the capital and do some errands or the like.
Yeah.

Story behind your handle:
Too long really… but… uh, the base word of the name started off as a name I chose for a character I wrote about. Eventually I came to using the name myself. It eventually evolved into more. Sometimes it was short for Nominis Expers (Nameless) and had a correlation to “No One”, which I would often use as well. Sometimes it became Nyxy by others. In the end it became Nyxity.

What month were you born in?
December.

Where do you live?
My room.

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DESCRIBE YOUR…

Wallet:
Cheap, black, and leather.

Car:
For the safety of others and myself, I have no lisence.

Toothbrush:
Um…white and green I think…just one of the ones the dentist gives out

Jewelry worn daily:
Steel watch and a steel ring.

Pillow Case:
Old, light blue, cotton.

Underwear:
Cotton.

Sunglasses:
Frames with tinted lenses.

Favorite shirt:
Grey sports tank top.

CD in stereo:
I have no stereo.

Piercings:
Ears.

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WHAT ARE YOU…?

Wearing now:
White tank, blue jeans, mentioned jewelry, intimates and glasses.

Wishing (at the moment):
Nothing.

Wanting:
Nothing.

The last thing you ate:
Baked potato.

Something you are afraid of:
The future.

DO YOU…?

Do you like candles:
Sometimes.

Do you like the taste of blood:
Its cool.

Do you believe in love:
Sort of.

Do you believe in soul mates:
Somewhat.

Do you sleep naked?
I’m the exact opposite.

Do you eat seafood?
Hell no.

Do you believe in God?
Well, I do not lack in belief, but I’m not a Christian exactly.

Do you remember your dreams?
Only vaguely… usually I just know I wish I could record them.

Do you consider yourself a study freak?
I used to be… then my brain broke down.

Do you consider yourself a health nut?
Nope.

Do you like tattoos?
They are cool.

Do you believe in miracles?
Believe… Geez…

Do you burn easily in the sun?
Not really.

Do you speak a language other than English?
No.

What’s something you wish you could understand better?
Nothing comes to mind.

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RELATIONSHIPS

Are you shy around your crush?
No.

Still have feelings for anyone in a past relationship?
No.

Do you know what it feels like to be in love?
That sort of thing never has certainty.

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FASHION STUFF

Where is your favorite place to shop?
Online.

What color looks best on you?
Jewel colors is what someone said once. I think crimson is my best though.

What is your favorite thing to wear?
Tanks tops and jeans.

How much is the most you’ve ever spent in a single clothing store?
I do not know.

Who is the least fashionable person you know?
No clue.

Do you match your belt with your hair color?
I don’t wear belts.

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Uh… I own plenty, but only wear three: boots (cold days), sandals and house shoes.

What is the worst trend you see today?
I would not know.

Do you do drugs?
I’m medicated.

What kind of soap do you use?
The kind that helps dry skin.

What are you listening to right now?
DJ Sammy – Heaven (remix)

Who was the last person that called you?
I avoid phones like the plague.

How many buddies are online right now?
Don’t know. I’m not logged into anything that has buddy lists.

Do you send out holiday cards each year?
No.

Hair right now:
Uh… finally dry from my shower?

Mood:
Blank.

What can be said, I have been utterly tired lately. I have been sleeping atrociously to the point I cannot really remember anything. Well, I did get a haircut… about a week ago. With that I found a pair of jeans and got a sun catcher while at the mall.
I did not see Cindy on Monday. It sounds cheap to say it is because my mother forgot, but the thing is, I sort of have to rely on her. Why? My memory was shot a long time ago and thus is not very reliable for the most part.
Um… the other day… Yeah, Friday my mother an I returned home from grocery shopping and worked on re-filling out a form – one that my mother said she already gave to whoever sent it. Saturday my dad came down. I have no idea when he arrived because I slept most of the day away. I woke around one or two in the afternoon and ell asleep again around five due to fatigue as well as feeling the need to ralph. Such joy.
Other than that, the past week is a blur when I finish thinking about it. Anyway, my dad should be staying until Wednesday and I will be seeing Wynn on Friday.

You scored as Ishida Uryuu. You are Ishida Uryuu. Very handy with crafts and needles, you are talented and smart. You began with a huge grudge against shinigami, but after meeting Kurosaki Ichigo, things have changed. You work side-by-side with your once enemy, and have realized the importance of your grandfather’s lesson. Truly, you care about your friends a lot more than you let on, and you cannot help but worry about them. Trust your friends strengths and lend them your strength too. Ishida Uryuu 65% Shiba Ganjyu 55% Sado Yasutora (Chad) 40% Kuchiki Rukia 40% Kurosaki Ichigo 35% Urahara Kisuke 30% Shihouin Yoruichi 30% Inoue Orihime 25% Which Bleach character are you? created with QuizFarm.com

Heh… cool. He’s my favorite character. Though I do relate to him the most, I am not one for sewing, have never encountered a shinigami before and do not know my grandfather much.

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Huh… I got him again. It must be the “do you wear glasses” question that is the key. I’m not a super genius, however, and I do not think I have ever particuliarly looked “geeky”.

Wow… I never saw this one coming. Only thing I can be relatively certain on is the last sentence.

Denise popped up out of the blue last night on messenger. She seems to be doing well. My dad came down today. Tomorrow my mom is getting her new puppy. I’m tired right now, so I am going to bed.

Which X-men character are you?

You are Wolverine. You are an amazing athlete and everyone knows not to pick a fight with you, unless the want a trip to the ER. Your also a loner, so you never are really in a relationship. Anger influences most of your decision and you love to question authority Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join| Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

which x-men evolution charactor are you

Logan(wolverine)-you don’t have feelings for anyone but will help someone in need.you have a kind heart even though you don’t show it often. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join| Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Ouran highschool host club,what character are you.

You are Takashi Morinozuka(mori).you are kind,faithful,and very shy.but to help you get along in the world you must open up,it’s not like peaple are gunna eat you alive.You may not want to open up because you are afraid,but there are peaple that love you at your side. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join| Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Ouran High Host Club! Which type of boy is for you?(for girls)

Natural type: Haruhi FujiokaYou like a guy or maybe its a girl. Who knows. They are understanding and conservative. And they just want to feel comfortable with you. They want to be able to trust you and for you to trust them. Surprisingly this type is just as hard to find as all the others. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join| Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

If I were a month, I would be: The winter months.
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Saturday.
If I were a time of day, I would be: 11:00 PM.
If I were a planet, I would be: Jupiter.
If I were a sea animal, I would be: Seahorse.
If I were a direction, I would be: North.
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: Table.
If I were a sin, I would be: Tristia.
If I were a historical figure I would be: Deceased.
If I were a liquid, I would be: Blood.
If I were a stone, I would be: Quantum Quattro Silica.
If I were a tree, I would be: Oak.
If I were a bird, I would be: Raven.
If I were a tool, I would be: Hammer.
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Lily.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Autumn day.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: Chiron.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Piano or chimes.
If I were an animal, I would be: A feline.
If I were a colour, I would be: Teal.
If I were an emotion, I would be: Indifference.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: Water chestnut.
If I were a sound, I would be: Silence.
If I were an element, I would be: Air.
If I were a car, I would be: Convertable.
If I were a song, I would be: Something I’d listen to.
If I were a movie, I would be: Something I’d watch.
If I were a book, I would be written by: Myself.
If I were a food, I would be: Soup.
If I were a place, I would be: Outer space.
If I were a taste, I would be: Mello.
If I were a scent, I would be: Fresh.
If I were a religion, I would be: None.
If I were a word, I would be: “Aa.”
If I were a body part, I would be: Hands.
If I were a facial expression, I would be: Indifference.
If I were a subject in school, I would be: Something boring.
If I were a cartoon character, I would be:
If I were a shape, I would be: Tear.
If I were a number, I would be: 13.
If I were an item of clothing, I would be: Sleeveless shirt.
If I were a piece of jewelry, I would be: Watch.
If I were a clothing accessory, I would be: Belt.

If I were a month, I would be: December or January
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Friday
If I were a time of day, I would be: 12AM
If I were a planet, I would be: Jupiter or Uranus
If I were a sea animal, I would be: Jellyfish
If I were a direction, I would be: North or South
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: Bed
If I were a sin, I would be: Tristia
If I were a historical figure I would be: Not sure, but likely Van Gogh or Emily Dickinson
If I were a liquid, I would be: Blood
If I were a stone, I would be: Quantum Quattro Silica
If I were a tree, I would be: Oak
If I were a bird, I would be: Mourning Dove
If I were a tool, I would be: Pen
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Weed
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Wind
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: Chiron
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Violin
If I were an animal, I would be: Feline
If I were a color, I would be: Bluish Teal
If I were an emotion, I would be: Detachment
If I were a vegetable, I would be: Potato
If I were a sound, I would be: Breathing
If I were an element, I would be: Air
If I were a car, I would be: Refurbished
If I were a song, I would be: The Point of No Return
If I were a movie, I would be: Goodwill Hunting
If I were a book, I would be written by: Myself
If I were a food, I would be: Rice
If I were a place, I would be: Annwn
If I were a taste, I would be: Bland
If I were a scent, I would be: Ocean breeze
If I were a religion, I would be: Pantheism
If I were a word, I would be: Okay-yo
If I were a body part, I would be: Pituitary gland
If I were a facial expression, I would be: Blank
If I were a subject in school, I would be: Sociology or Psychology
If I were a cartoon character, I would be: L
If I were a shape, I would be: Elliptical
If I were a number, I would be: 13
If I were an item of clothing, I would be: Tank top
If I were a piece of jewelry, I would be: Ring
If I were a clothing accessory, I would be: Belt

1. Name: Nyxity
2. Nickname: Nyx
3. Birthday: Saturday
4. Place of Birth: Asia
5. Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Education: High school and two college classes
8. Schools you went to: Elementary, middle, and high school.
9. Occupation: “Home maker”
10. Residence: USA
11. Screen Names: Nyxity

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Colour: Black
13. Hair Length: Jawline
14. Eye colour: Brown
15. Best Feature: Uh…
16. Height: Five-two
17. Braces?: No
18. Glasses?: Blind as a bat
19. Piercing: Ears
20. Tattoos: I want one
21. Righty or Lefty: Southpaw

___Your ‘Firsts’___

22. First best friend: Jill
23. First Award: Elementary
24. First Sport You Joined: None
25. First Pet: Cat
26. First Real Vacation: By memory?
27. First Concert: Not my thing
28. First Love: Cartoons

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Uh…
30. TV Show: Criminal Minds, Medium, CSI, list goes on…
31. Colour: Hues of blue
32. Rapper: No listen
33. Band: Eh…
34. Song Right Now: Killing Me Softly
35. Friend: Heh…
36. Candy: Um…
37. Sport to Play: None
38. Restaurant: Two places here
39. Favorite brand to wear: Hum…
40. Store: Amazon or Ebay
41. School Subject: Lunch=Library
42. Animal: Felines
43. Book: Herm…
44. Magazine: Catalogs
45. Shoes: Boots or sandals

___Currently___

46. Feeling: Eh…
47. Single or Taken?: Neither
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: Nothing
51. Typing: This
52. Online?: Yes
53. Listening To: Together Again
54. Thinking About: I need a drink
55. Wanting To: Buy something
56. Watching: Myself type
57. Wearing: Jeans, T-shirt, watch and glasses

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids? No
59. Want to be Married: Depends
60. Careers in Mind: Er…
61. Where do you want to live?: Here
62. Car: No

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair colour: Brown or black
64. Hair length: Longish
65. Eye colour: Hazel
66. Measurements: Not shorter than me, naturally thinnish
67. Cute or Sexy: Enigmatic
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs
70. Short or Tall: Near my height or taller
71. Easygoing or serious: Something of a combination
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Same as #71
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Huh?
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Why not both?

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: No
79. Had Alcohol: A sip
80. Smoked: No
81. Ran Away From Home: No
82. Broken a bone: No
85. Broken Someones Heart: Sort of
86. Broken Up With Someone: Sort of
87. Cried When Someone Died: Yes
88. Cried At School: Yeah

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: Somewhat
90. Miracles: I do not know
91. Love At First sight: I would not know
93. Aliens: Sure
94. Soul Mates: Sounds nice
95. Heaven: Dun’ care for the most part
96. Hell: Same as #95
98. Kissing on The First Date: No
99. Horoscopes: Not really

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is there someone you want but you know you can’t have?
Not from what I know of

Well, was not that fun? Heh. A few notes in the following:
The computer desk arrived in the mail some point this week.
I got my first Ebay package. Now I wait on the other.
I’ve been experimenting on the old laptop mentioned earlier. Hopefully, I will not kill the poor thing.
I wrote another short ficlet.
I looked through “MySpace”. I found my sister’s link as well as the links of many people who were aquaintences of my childhood. A few moments were of curses and saying the lord’s name in vain while others were of trying to recall the name to the face.
Tomorrow is grocery day.
The next day my dad will be coming down. He will be staying about a week this time around.
The house should be closing on the 5th of June, but it might close a bit sooner.
I will likely see Cindy on that day.
I will see Mrs. Wynn later on that week.

The dentist appointment went smoothly and I had no real problems with my teeth. My dad will be coming down this Thursday and leaving on Tuesday. My brother should be back tomorrow. For Easter everyone is coming down here. Some point, I do not know when I will see a therapist. It has all been sorted out more or less. Now, it is time for the whole reason for this update…

Nyx says:
Fight your inner penguin….
Kayel says:
What does my inner penguin want?
Kayel says:
And why am I fighting it?
Nyx says:
*Shrugs*
Nyx says:
I just like the phrase.
Nyx says:
Also, nuns, baby. Nuns.
Kayel says:
Must you fight your inner penguin in order to be one with the duck?
Nyx says:
No.
Nyx says:
Ah…
Nyx says:
I know. Your inner penguin is your conscious. It has to be. Penguin = nun = conscious.
Kayel says:
You know what’s scary?
Nyx says:
?
Kayel says:
That actually made sense to me.
Nyx says:
Whoo-hoo!!!!!
Nyx says:
*Snugs*
Nyx says:
Wonderful boy-o.

That occured last night. I love that sort of stuff. Joy.

10 Firsts…

First Friend: Jill, before we even went to kindergarten.
First Imaginary Friend: I do not think I had any.
First Pet dog name: I am not terribly fond of dogs… well, I simply would not want to own one.
First Piercing: Ears when I was in second or third grade.
First Crush: Third grade, brown hair, hazel eyes… I’m a sucker for that combination it seems.
First CD: It was one my dad burned for me… it was a bunch of Japanese songs.
First Car: That is hilarious.
First School: Travis Elementary.
First Kiss: Well, that is very personal… also, it is too vague for me.
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9 Lasts…

Last Time You Smoked: Never.
Last Food You Ate: Ramen, oriental flavor.
Last Car Ride: Uh… sometime earlier this week… maybe on Wednesday?
Last Movie You Watched: Boogie Pop Phantom, tape one.
Last Phone Call: That was too long ago… from, my dad likely… to, a machine to order my meds.
Last CD You listened to: My Gravitaion one.
Last Bubble Bath You took: A bubble bath? Have I ever had a BUBBLE bath?
Last Song You listened to: Its not a Fashion Statement, its a Deathwish… I need something else to listen to soon…
Last Fight: Uh…
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8 Have You Ever…

Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: Nope.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Yuck.
Have You Ever Been on TV: Sadly.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Nope.
Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: Never.
Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: Never.
Have You Ever Been out of the Country: You might say that.
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7 Things You are Wearing…

– Glasses.
– Tank top.
– Watch.
– Chain dog collar on my wrist that would require two pliers to get off.
– Jeans.
– Hair tie.
– Necessities.
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6 Things You’ve Done Today…

– This.
– Laundry.
– Shower.
– Ate.
– Tossed in bed all night.
– Thinking (about trying to go to bed again.)

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5 Favorite Things (no specific order)…

– Fool. (Smirks.)
– My parents.
– My computer/with its Internet and word processor.
– My “art collection”.
– My cat.

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4 People You Most Trust (no specific order)…

– Mom.
– Kyle.
– The Twins.
– My cat.

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3 Choices…

– Vanilla or Chocolate: Vanilla.
– Hugs or Kisses: Hug.
– Pens or Pencils: Pens.
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2 Things You Want to do Before You Die…

– Make sure my things (writings and drawings) “live on” (are not thrown away the moment I die.)
– Be with the people I care about.

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1 Person You Want to see

– At the moment or at some point? I’d like to see the twins at some point. At the moment… my cat… kitteh… Love.

Okay… enough with that. Notes…

My dad will be arriving today.
I’ll see my brother, his girlfriends and I believe my sister some point this weekend.
My mother had me order my meds over the phone… I screwed up in the end though… BAH!
I finally saw Sweat Punch 3 Comedy by Studio 4C – that is a happy day.
My brother surprised me the other night by giving me two swords – one is a katana, the other is… well… a sword.
I’ll be seeing the therapist this coming… I think Wednesday.
CP and Neko are dead, Jim. Sobs…

Nyxity: Though in all truth, I’m like a six year old or something…
Make: six years old?
Nyxity: Yeah.
Make: how old are u really and why do u consider yourself 6 years old?
Nyxity: I did not really… uh… grow up. Emotionally and all of that crap.
Make: blah
Merk: How so?
Make: as long as u know right from wrong
Merk: Do you throw tantrums?
Nyxity: Just recently I had my first time going into a convenience store and bought something.
Make: and do nothing really stupid your grown up
Make: how old are you nyxity?
Nyxity: I tend to forget to breathe during that sort of stuff… and…
Nyxity: yeah.
Nyxity: your age.
Make: yea
Nyxity: I was not taught many life skills.
Make: forget to breathe?
Nyxity: Yeah. I do that often.
Make: O.o mmm
Nyxity: Yeah…
Make: i thought u learn that naturally… as a baby
Nyxity: If I do something like run to get something, I realize I have not breathed until I have done the task.
Make: wow
Make: mmm
Make: your a guy or a girl?
Nyxity: The few times I have tried buying things on my own, I forget to breathe and when done and out of the store, I realize I have not breathed and I feel sick.
Nyxity: I question gender really. Most of the time, I say guy, but I am actually a girl.
Make: maybe your just very, very nervous when your buying things
Nyxity: Apparently.
Nyxity: :/
Make: relax
Nyxity: Heh. They say I have an anxiety disorder.
Make: the store dude in there is trying to make money. not scare you
Make: yea
Make: maybe you do have anxiety disorder
Nyxity: Oh, I know that. It is just a natural progression for me though.
Make: just try your best to calm down. get a friend to come with you the next time u buy something
Nyxity: Laughs.
Make: make sure he or she keeps reminding you to breath
Nyxity: I have no friends. I think we established that once before actually.
Merk: What about the twins?
Nyxity: Can they go with me into a store?
Merk: Oh
Merk: Nope
Nyxity: I am talking about the kind you can feel, touch, see and hear at the same time… in other words, “real friends” as my psychiatrist puts it.
Nyxity: Bleh… I am fine with cybernetic ones.
Merk: Same here
Merk: Some of the best people I have met have been right here in the chat room.
Nyxity: “Real ones” cause too much stress for me.
Merk: And they tend to impose.
Nyxity: Yep.
Merk: *yeah, they
Nyxity: Anyway… I have been fine enough with how I have live so far… in terms of how I do socializing. Apparently it is not good enough. *Dodgy*
Merk: I have tried socializing, going to parties and outings.
Nyxity: Those… would bore me beyond end.
Merk: I figured it would get easier, but it doesn’t. It was boring, awkward, and frustrating.
Nyxity: Yep.
Nyxity: :/
Nyxity: huh… Apparently is is now dark… Gotta look for a light.
Merk: kk
Nyxity: That ever happen to you?
Merk: Did what happen?
Nyxity: The day is freaking bright and then the next time you look up it is pitch black?
Merk: Yeah.
Nyxity: Sort of helps that I keep the shades down all the time though.
Nyxity: 😀
Merk: Sunlight’s harsh.
Merk: …whatever it looks like.
Nyxity: So, has the Ceep and Nekotu been entering here off an on since their comp has fried?
Merk: Not that I know of, until now.
Nyxity: Nods. Figured.
Merk: They completely vanished from Fandom, forum and chat
Nyxity: I tend to as well, for certain intervals, but I figure that is normal for me.
Nyxity: You ever talk with Blue?
Merk: Yeah. She’s silly, but sweet. Silly being a good thing, imo..
Nyxity: :/
Nyxity: Curious. I sort of avoid talking to her… she always gets the wrong idea, and I usually have no idea what she is saying. -__- I like her… sometimes I want to comment on something… nope… wrong idea. *dodgy*
Merk: I think she gets her wires crossed, English not being her first language.
Merk: soblue: Merk, u r okay Ponperipon: heh soblue: I love fat guys
Merk: lol
Nyxity: heh
Nyxity: :/
Nyxity: Oh, I realize that well. I just have no idea what she is saying and when I do she also has no idea what I am saying… blah, blah… I sort of give up. Gets me nowhere other than making her leery of me.
Make has left the room.
Nyxity: Scared him off.
Merk: He does that a lot.
Nyxity: Nods
Merk: Bad net connection, I think.
Nyxity: Still, I just like typing that. Along with the bit about eating people.
Merk: Cannibal
Nyxity: ‘Don’t eat meat in real life… might as well be a cybernetic cannibal.
Nyxity: Yep!
Merk: Hannibal, even.
Merk: Living off a dream?
Nyxity: EH?
Merk: I thought that was what you meant.
Nyxity: heh
Nyxity: nah…
Merk: Gaining sustenance by eating people, cybernetically.
Nyxity: it just is oddly fun.
Nyxity: [Link]
Nyxity: I’m left handed.
Merk: “Forbidden”
Nyxity: shame.
Make entered the room.
Merk: Welcome back
Nyxity: ’cause I hell am not letting you see my account. I’m paranoid like that.
Merk: Don’t blame you.
Nyxity: Half the stuff I do, is likely only seen by two to four people out of the entire earth’s population.
Make: thx
Make: nyxity, it may be hard
Nyxity: *Lost*
Make: but i think the first thing you need to get is to make a friend outside of the internet
Nyxity: Yeah, that is what the psychiatrist lady and such are getting at.
Make: mmm
Nyxity: I’m willing to try… but the thing is… I don’t like hanging out and junk.
Make: mmm
Nyxity: In the end I’d have the person meet me on the internet and we’d do everything there.
Merk: We need more otakus in the world.
Make: i’m not a big fan of hanging out either unless the friend lives very close by
Nyxity: I did not even do that that much when I had a friend who was my next door neighbor.
Merk: Bah, I’m being booted.
Merk: Back in a few
Merk has left the room.
Nyxity: I mean, hanging out was just like… lounging around in a room and just… doing nothing.
Nyxity: I have better ways to spend my time, despite people would argue that I’m doing nothing. If not, it was driving around in a car and wasting fuel money…
Make: when hang out, me and my friend would either watch anime, movies or play video games
Make: thats bout it
Nyxity: Never knew anyone who liked anime around my areas.
Make: i’m sure theres someone. u just didn’t meet them yet
Nyxity: Well, once in a while I saw a few… but…
Make: too shy to speak?
Nyxity: We were on different spectrums.
Make: mmm
Make: i c…
Make: mmm
Nyxity: You have your fanatics, those who just like reading, those who are into whacking each other with things for roleplay… video gamers…
Make: try this
Nyxity: I never really found anyone who was like my case.
Make: write a not saying “remember to breath” put it in your wallet
Nyxity: heh
Make: so the next time u buy something from a store you would see that note as u take out your cash then you better remember to breath
Nyxity: my last endeavor, which was getting a coke from a convenience store, I was chanting that in my head.
Make: mmm
Nyxity: I likely looked like a zombie. I did remember to breathe. I just don’t remember anything else. 😀
Make: hey, at least thats a improvement. next time, try to remember to breath and what you were buying
Nyxity: Well, you are talking to a person who will either forget to eat but remember to sleep, or forget to sleep but remember to eat.
Make: everything takes practice. you’ll remember it will sooner ot later
Nyxity: Yeah, well I’m practicing on things people do just by… um… nature.
Make: you can do it!
Nyxity: laughs
Make: don’t give up
Nyxity: I try anything… I think that is the only reason I have survived so far.
Make: don’t worry if it’s natural or not
Nyxity: I don’t. As, said, it is my nature… so I guess… I am trying to go against my nature until it becomes something different. I mean, when I do things like the whole getting something from a store, I’m not afraid of people… I’m just lost as hell in a sense. I know what I have to do, I know how to do it… my body just does not want to or something.
Make: i c
Make: i think i know how it feels somewhat
Nyxity: It is so fun being a screw up. *Smirks*
Make: sometimes when i walk into a store, i just don’t feel right unless i buy something
Nyxity: I guess that is why I function on the Internet so well.
Make: doesn’t feel right to not buy something
Nyxity: Yeah… that is the way of it.
Make: so i end up buying something. cept your situation is a bit different
Nyxity: You just sort of see the people behind the counter eyeing you sometimes. 😀
Nyxity: If I could control my body from far away rather than inside, I’d do just dandy I think.
Make: mmm
Make: try this…
Nyxity: Heaven forbid if I figure out how to play video games.
Make: listen to a mp3 player or a cd player with your favorite songs while inside a store
Nyxity: I’d probably forget what I’m doing then.
Make: no you won’t. you’ll remember
Nyxity: You’d be surprised.
Make: and you’ll ignore whatever noise is outside your headphones
Make: just try it. it might work
Nyxity: I’m the type who will enter the kitchen. I’ll be going to check if my clothes are done. I walk passed the trashcan and say, I need to change that when I go pass again. The clothes are not dry, I turn and tell myself I’ll change the trash and take it out then… I leave the room, go by the trashcan, and forget about telling myself to do the thing completely. Then an hour later or so I’ll remember. I’ll take out the trash. On my way back in I’ll say, “Okay, I need to replace the bag now”. I enter, I walk right pass the trashcan. Sometime later, I’ll remember. Simply put, being me is… interesting.
Make: mmm… it sounds kinda cute… being a klutz and all… >__<
Nyxity: Laughs
Nyxity: I have never been called that before.
Make: anyway, try your best at remembering! everyone has stuff that they are good at and stuff that they are bad at
Nyxity: Nice to know I’m bad at thinking.